Like, what the eff?

Seriously man, if everything in tv dramas are for real, i'll go to the "wishing" pond and dump one dollar in.

Sushido.

(Spasm legs)

Chinese paper today. I mean, MANDARIN. Wonder if I spelt it right but WUTEVARRRRR. So bitch and I went to eat at pizza hut. PICTURES AND GIFS! OK bye.

PS. I MISS THE B-HAMS AND PUFFS.
PSS. MEETUPS PLEASE.
PSSS. MOVIE DATES PLEASE.

Fuck.

Sometimes I tell myself, "Jerena, you're not going to make a comment on anyone. No matter how pissed you feel. Ignore the piss, ignore the piss." And then, I make a comment. SHIT. I have to practice self-controlling.

I'm very sorry I didn't tell you pok pok. It's just that I didn't know how. It's not something I like to talk about and think about. It just brings back memories that I want to forget, the whole process plays through my head every single time. I didn't feel prepared to talk about it too. I want to be treated like normal, like every other day. Being treated in another way just makes me think about it even more. I'm really sorry. I just want to let you know that I totally trust you pok pok.

LOL. I started with pok pok and ended with pok pok. HAHA. OH. And I didn't lose to your brother OK??? Pftttttttt.

ANYWAY. Here's the quiz bbie asked me to do.

Instructions:
-Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions
-Then tag 8 people in your links list them out at the end of the post.
-Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
-Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Ehhhhhh, I don't know. Before 40?

2. What you usually do most of the time during weekend ?
Laze around and pretend to be studying.

3. What I want the most now?
To be able to concentrate on my priorities and move on with my life.

4. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I don't know, but if there's a job offer as a personal shopper I'll take it. ;)

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
That he would come back.

6. What are you afraid to lose now?
Everything except my unhappiness.

7. Do you believe in being in love forever?
Sometimes.

8. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
YES.... my ass.

9. If you have one million dollars, what would you spend in on?
EVERYTHING. HAHAHA.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
Treat me right, understand me... all that sappy stuff.

11. Which type of person do you hate most?
People who sin.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
DUH!!!!!!!!

13. Have you been betrayed by any of your friend?
Ehhhhh, I don't think so.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My family and my friends.

15. Roughly, how much of an age gap would you want to have between you and your hubby?
Errrrrrrr, 13 years?

16. What do you want your friend to be like?
Understanding and LOVE ME. :D

17. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
Someone they can come to talk to, be it a happy thing or a sad thing.

18. Who do you love most?
My family, B-hams and the puffs.
HELLO! PUFFS, MEET UP!!

19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
I don't know, depends on the situation I guess.

20. What's your regret in life?
Not spending enough time with my family talking and being embarrass of them in the past.

People i tagged: I'll tag the puffs & b-hams but they've all been tagged, LOL. So I'll tag everyone reading this.

So.

I pretty much kinda avoided blogging these few days. I'm actually thinking of changing my url. Many things happened this week. MANY things. Things no one can actually guess unless, you know, I personally tell them.

I felt like my life and maybe I have changed. I started to have some mood wings more frequently. I started to think about my studies more. I started to have less sleep. I started using eye-mo. I started ignoring about my appearance when I go to school. I started to feel like I have to go home early everyday. I started to get easily irritated. I started to eat papaya whenever I can get my hands on one. I realised that I love my family very much. I started to swear inside my head whenever someone talks to me about a particular matter. I started to make stupid blog posts like this.

Lol. So I'm going to change my url. It's OK if you guys don't relink or whatever. I'm considering taking down the links part anyways. And I'm NOT going to make my blog private. I mean, what's the use of having a blog only to lock it? Why not just write in a diary? And if you want your friends to see it, then show them your diary or something, right? This is just a personal opinion, I'm NOT shooting anyone. I'm just talking about this matter in general, something to get my mind off things.

OH FUCK. MID YEAR IS NEXT MONDAY.

Whatever. OK. So, I'll probably change my link soon. Like tomorrow or something. Kbye.