Fuck.

Sometimes I tell myself, "Jerena, you're not going to make a comment on anyone. No matter how pissed you feel. Ignore the piss, ignore the piss." And then, I make a comment. SHIT. I have to practice self-controlling.

I'm very sorry I didn't tell you pok pok. It's just that I didn't know how. It's not something I like to talk about and think about. It just brings back memories that I want to forget, the whole process plays through my head every single time. I didn't feel prepared to talk about it too. I want to be treated like normal, like every other day. Being treated in another way just makes me think about it even more. I'm really sorry. I just want to let you know that I totally trust you pok pok.

LOL. I started with pok pok and ended with pok pok. HAHA. OH. And I didn't lose to your brother OK??? Pftttttttt.

ANYWAY. Here's the quiz bbie asked me to do.

Instructions:
-Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions
-Then tag 8 people in your links list them out at the end of the post.
-Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
-Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Ehhhhhh, I don't know. Before 40?

2. What you usually do most of the time during weekend ?
Laze around and pretend to be studying.

3. What I want the most now?
To be able to concentrate on my priorities and move on with my life.

4. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I don't know, but if there's a job offer as a personal shopper I'll take it. ;)

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
That he would come back.

6. What are you afraid to lose now?
Everything except my unhappiness.

7. Do you believe in being in love forever?
Sometimes.

8. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
YES.... my ass.

9. If you have one million dollars, what would you spend in on?
EVERYTHING. HAHAHA.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
Treat me right, understand me... all that sappy stuff.

11. Which type of person do you hate most?
People who sin.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
DUH!!!!!!!!

13. Have you been betrayed by any of your friend?
Ehhhhh, I don't think so.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My family and my friends.

15. Roughly, how much of an age gap would you want to have between you and your hubby?
Errrrrrrr, 13 years?

16. What do you want your friend to be like?
Understanding and LOVE ME. :D

17. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
Someone they can come to talk to, be it a happy thing or a sad thing.

18. Who do you love most?
My family, B-hams and the puffs.
HELLO! PUFFS, MEET UP!!

19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
I don't know, depends on the situation I guess.

20. What's your regret in life?
Not spending enough time with my family talking and being embarrass of them in the past.

People i tagged: I'll tag the puffs & b-hams but they've all been tagged, LOL. So I'll tag everyone reading this.

Anime eyes worhxxz!

SHIT. A WASP CAME INTO MY ROOM. Scared the hell outta me.

Anyway, I didn't go to school today (you should know by now, tsk). MC! So I went to meet Xiuwei around 5 plus to get my hoodie at JEC. But I didn't in the end. We headed to jurong point where I bought my icecream (didn't use alipok's voucher, that's for despo times only) and went to mac. Talked then went to Xiuwei house there to take pics. Then we went home.

THANK YOU B AND BBIE FOR ALL YOUR SPONGEBOB ITEMS! I WUV YOU WORHX!

Okbai.

All hail the almighty Banana.

HOWDY YA'ALL!

So I'm at home. Didn't go to school today. I was sick, LOL. I waited for this moment to come since January and now that it came, I don't really feel happy. AT ALL. In fact, I feel like cow dung. All the medication I took makes me want to fall into Banana Land. And, I really should be studying my geography right now instead of sitting here blogging. But seriously man, NOW?!

Eh eh, like my new blogskin? I know it's you-gee-el-why and stuff but whatever. At least my blog looks alive right. Plus, I'm spreading the message to save the environment, save THE EARTH.

Ok la, I changed because someone complained that my previous blogskin was BORING. Boring meh, boring meh? Yes. LOL. I'm talking to myself here.

So.

I pretty much kinda avoided blogging these few days. I'm actually thinking of changing my url. Many things happened this week. MANY things. Things no one can actually guess unless, you know, I personally tell them.

I felt like my life and maybe I have changed. I started to have some mood wings more frequently. I started to think about my studies more. I started to have less sleep. I started using eye-mo. I started ignoring about my appearance when I go to school. I started to feel like I have to go home early everyday. I started to get easily irritated. I started to eat papaya whenever I can get my hands on one. I realised that I love my family very much. I started to swear inside my head whenever someone talks to me about a particular matter. I started to make stupid blog posts like this.

Lol. So I'm going to change my url. It's OK if you guys don't relink or whatever. I'm considering taking down the links part anyways. And I'm NOT going to make my blog private. I mean, what's the use of having a blog only to lock it? Why not just write in a diary? And if you want your friends to see it, then show them your diary or something, right? This is just a personal opinion, I'm NOT shooting anyone. I'm just talking about this matter in general, something to get my mind off things.

OH FUCK. MID YEAR IS NEXT MONDAY.

Whatever. OK. So, I'll probably change my link soon. Like tomorrow or something. Kbye.

I LOVE MY BLOG.

Sheeeeeeeeeeeet, I love my blog. HAHAHA. OK. So I added some pictures. All I need is a picture of bitch & i and I'm done. I'll add more when I get the chance.

Sooooooooo, I didn't go for the Adam Khoo thing. LOL. I think I might get a scolding....lol. INSTEAD. Bitch and I went for lunchhhhhh. It's been awhile. We laughed at mr paul and the rubber thing. SHEET. It's SO funny man i tell you. Funniest shit EVER. OK. Off to study...........not. Later la kthxbye.

"How do you blindfold chinaman."
"USE A RUBBERBAND LA ALAMAK." *emphasises slitty eyes*

PS. I LOVE PEOPLE OF ALL SKIN COLOR.
PSS. I need to stop "LOL"ling.
PSSS. GIFS ARE COMING BACK!!!! I'll be posting sooooooooooon.

This is not the information counter.

Sheet, stop asking me EVERYTHING. In fact, DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING. I'm not the freaking information counter for goodness sake. Sheet. STOP ASKING ME!

Sooooooooo, school was kind of sucky today. Actually, today IS a sucky day. Change of classroom day 2. And change in sitting arrangement. Now I'm all the way at the back, which doesn't bother me much. The fact that there isn't ANY fan and that the noise level is insanely HIGH pisses me off. These are the times where I start to resent VB's broken pelvis.

Anddddddddd, it's an insanely long day today. I slept during aspire. Yay. Wow, how fun. Double sheet. There's the Adam Khoo Booster workshop tomorrow. Yay since there's no aspire. Boo since there's english remedial before and the workshop. Sheet. Actually, I don't don't like aspire. It's not so bad.

"Bitch, shut up."
"NO!"
"SHUT UP!"
"Ok."

Fun times.

"See? As a teacher my shirt is always tucked it neatly."
"Mr Chew, you wear a belt. HAHAHA!"

"Ahhhh! My hair center parted!"
"Who cares about your hair huh!?"
"I!" (sings along)

Whatever.

I guess my opinion and stand doesn't really matter. I'm insignificant.

Flag Day was AWESOME.

YESTERDAY

See? He's not rotting somewhere in the corner of my room. He's very much alive. He went for tanning hence, the darknest. LOL.

TODAY, FLAG DAY

Actually, it can't be considered "Flag Day" since I returned an almost empty tin. My cip hours are full anyway. Insteadddddd, went to eat with bitch. We went to eat at the Jappo (is it?) food shop in JE. After that, went to collect our tins and walked around. Went to IMM next for swensens. We cabbed there, HAHAHA. I felt like I was in HEAVEN! Rainy day + Chocolate icecream + Jacket = Snuggly. WOOOOOO. Then we went to walk around blah blah, then to daiso. I bought some stuff from there, one em' was my AWESOME SPECTACLES. We went to the spectacles section and bitch went to put on this tiny pair of sunglasses (I dont think they were shades, I think they were kiddy sunglasses BWAHAHA). IT WAS SO FUNNY! And sheeeeeet, my nets card got rejected. Kind of embarassing and whatevahh. And I owe bitch some money now. Added on to my mountain of debts. LOL.

So we went to the Garden Place or something to watch little kids act like fools (tee hee, just kiddinggggg) and wished that we were them. That's when we took out the awesome spectacles and started taking retarded yet funny pictures and videos of ourselves. WAS SO FUNNY I TELL YOU. Check out our anime eyes.

After that we left to return the tins and I went home. So, the mid year examinations are coming right up and I feel so unprepared. Sheeeeeet. Kbye.

A day with the B-Hams.

YO YO YO, what happenin'?????

Anyway, I was late for school. I woke up at 7.01am. Such a genius man. Had to run TEN ROUNDS!!!! Bloody hell. I was sweating like a pig. Then had to take the SS test. Was OK I guess. But I think I'm going to fail since I didn't really ATQ.

Napha after school. Bloody shit. I failed like, 80% of everything we did. But it was fun cheering my classmates on. Kinda building up the class spirit thing among us girls. WOOOO.

Then went back to change and met the B-Hams for dinner. Went to crystal jade for la mian, quite nice. We were talking about the asteriod that's going to hit the Earth in 31 years time. We said that we'll die together so, we were saying that when the asteriod comes we'll rent a hotel room in Fullerton to stay. Actually, a suite. Then we'll die there. HAHAHA. I was saying that we'll be fosillised if the ceiling fell on us. Then thousands of years later, people will discover us human fossils. HAHAHA. We talked about all the stuff about how we were going to die, and that when we fly to heaven. Weiling will fly in front us, like normally when Xiuwei and I are fighting behind. Then. Xiuwei and I will be behind beating each other. HAHAHA. SO FUNNY MAN. There are still many others that we talked about but I forgotten already. ): We talked about A LOT of stuff.

Then we went to walk around and started to talk about Bs. B, B-bie and B-less. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (Inside joke here. Sorry if you don't know what I'm talking about.) I almost fell while wearing heels. Was hoping that I will sprain my ankle though. AHHHHH. Before that we, The B-Hams (HAHAHAHA), went to Value to buy some drinks. We bought the mini milo packets. Shit. It looked very cute but tasted like sheeeeeet. It's too overly sweet. B drank two packets though. B-bie and I had a tummy ache and had to go home to shit after. HAHAHA. Something happened in Value though. Something really embarrassing since B kept calling me B-bie........ but it was really funny.

Then bought fries and fruit talk and went home to shit. HAHAHA. Today was fun. Hanging out with my B-Hams is fun. Hanging out with the puffs is also fun. GATHERING SOON!!!!!

No pictures today. No threesome piccos. ):

And after all, you're my wonderwall.

So I didn't visit Viki-bird with the rest of my classmates. I think I might be going there some other day. I think. And maybe I'll drop by queensway and get myself some fbt shorts. If you guys think I suck because I didn't go see VB, then think all you want. Get well soon VB, not that you'll be seeing this. LOLZZZZZ.

Hanywayz. Instead, I went to library to study w/ Xiuwei. Well, that was my initial intention. We spent most of the time whispering, NOT SWEET NOTHINGS, jokes and tying our hair. There was this one particular joke where Xiuwei had to answer.

Dialougue (in whispering mode)
J: Give up?
X: Why? (In chinese)
J: Give up la.
X: Why? (In chinese)
J: GIVE UP LA!!

HAHAHA. So lame sia! Anyway, went to eat roti prata after that. I tell you, everytime you leave the library and go eat, the food tastes THE BEST. I wanted to have a second plate, which I wish I had, but I couldn't since I had to use the remaining money to buy something.

FAST FORWARDZ. We were leaving harvey norman and going down the escalator to fox. Then I saw my SWEETHEART SPONGEY and pointed at him. I was in this, wierd position. And if you push me I'll fall. That was what Xiuwei did to me. Well, she used her finger to poke/push my head. And since I was feeling weak and slow and using the escalator hand rail thing for support, I fell on the other side. The funny part was that I was falling slowing. HAHAHAHA. Then according to Xiuwei (I really couldn't recall anything), I used both of my hands to balance. So she pulled back my hand to steady me. SHE ALMOST KILLED ME! It was so funny, she was laughing until she had to use the handrailing for support. I was standing there going. "Wahliao, I almost died. You la!"

Fast forward again. On the way home, I received a call from my aunt and after that I told Xiuwei that lately I've been saying take care before my goodbyes. She told me she says "must smile"(in chinese: yao xiao). So I was like.... *in chinese

J: I think if you say to me....
X (interrupting me): I think I won't say to you. You will fa feng(go crazy).
J: WAHLIAO.
J & X breaks out into uncontrollable laughter.

So today was a pretty exciting day for me. HAHAHA. OK, time to go have a life. BYE.

*What did Batman tell Robin before he got into the car?
"Robin, get in the car."

HAHAHAHA!

Seriously man, SERIOUSLY??!!!

How can one be pissed off SO MANY times in a day? Seriously!??

How can one be able to laugh it off as though no bird shit has fallen on your face and you're literally like the bird shit?
How can one not stay pissed off at that one particular person that you want to be pissed off with?
How can one not argue when injustice is being done to you?
How can one tolerate all the nonsense going on around you?
How can one stand being all alone in one whole day?
How can one eat ten pieces of chicken and 3 servings of rice and still feel hungry?
How can one fucking stand getting pissed?
How can one stand being ignored?
How can one stand having NO LIFE?
How can one read these BS typed out?

HOW HOW HOW???

Hang on pops, I love you.

I LIKE HER HAIR!!!

I don't know why, but I'm very much into these kind of hairstyles. LOL.

Anyway, school today was absolutely boring. Well, OK. I lied. School was OK. For some reason I felt really motivated to study. But that feeling died out eventually lol. Twas quite a short day today. And SHIT. My stomach hurt like shit today! And I slept through chinese again. I know, you guys will be thinking, "What the hell? Stop sleeping already!" BUT MS LOH GAVE US FREE PERIOD. Still I could have studied my physics. I know I'm lazy. I've been totally tired, irritated and unfocused lately. Go read up last or this month's issue of seventeen. I NEED SLEEP. And icecream. Damn, I tell you. I think I'm addicted to that hot shit. I LOVE IT TO HELL OK.

Sooo, I'll go bathe and study. THE LIST OF TOPICS THAT I NEED TO STUDY IS FREAKIN LONG. Just one list alone has told me that I have no life. No. No life at all.